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Kidding About Heritage

So, you think before you were kidding about me prostrating my Pennsylvania heritage from my ancestors.  Since the n word thing, you said it means something else.  Well, I just won't listen.  NOW WHAT DUMMY.

Barrier

So, what's the barrier of people not from Eastern Florida thinking they don't have to think about someone from Florida?  I know in the New Orleans area, there are other things in that environment and it kinda seems like the real world except hot and by the water.  I think I have memories from my mom.  She moved to the U.S..  When I go to a different place in the U.S., I have to like readjust myself very much so.  It's very interesting, very, and very weird.  I just know about all the ways you have to keep yourself from feeling uncomfortable etc.  I don't think it's about the hot climate.  I mean, it isn't really just too hot...

Rude Central and Western Floridians

Aren't just the people in the more Central and Western areas of Florida rude?

Western Florida isn't very beachy.

Validity of Being an Ethnic Floridian

I really don't trust the validity of Ginny Kopf.  Her behavior is out-of-the-question, and unfortunately I don't believe she is very white.  I'm pretty white and Caucasian.  She won't even admit if she knows if she's just accepting people from Florida.  It's like she doesn't have a brain.  I mean, it's okay, but like it seems like she's being impolite and *beep* because of the n word thing, so like I said I don't trust anyone, anymore.  It's because of Tim Burton.  People prostrated themselves.

I think that most people wouldn't give a shit about living in Florida or populating California.  It's just that in other places of the U.S. they seem more concerned about physical, set things.

I'm not talking about my netiquette but about people with parents from Florida and people who moved to Florida as kids.  Orlando is a place where people from up north move to live by Disney, and we don't know if that's the more white, ***y people.

I know the people in Orlando are just shit.  They are too concerned about their figure and are too lazy to think to apply sunblock but "think you should.."  3(  I can't believe that.  IT IS NOT "COOL."

So, what, people in Florida aren't really all that?  What am I supposed to do?  I like other parts of the U.S., TOO!

Ate

Thin, More Crisp White Bakery Bread With Honey Ham, Lemon & Herb Dressing, and Lettuce Head
Cool Water
Chocolate Cake With Chocolate Frosting I Made, Last Piece, With Chocolate Breyer's Ice Cream, Have Some Leftover

Baking a vanilla cake with vanilla frosting to put on when it's cool.

Facebook Post

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Karen Chung Yes, that sums up the power of speech and pronunciation training!
(maybe white person from Minnesota)
http://www.facebook.com/karenschung

Me

I guess capability is a thing, like capacity.

Facebook Post

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Ginny Kopf: I'm all about giving people CONFIDENCE. When I worked with the executives this week (some private training, and some in a group class) on "Speaking with Clarity" (accent and diction work for more professional communication) they definitely feel as they get more CONTROL in their speech, it brings new confidence.

Me

When my mom wait I mean before we moved to Orlando and lived in the New Orleans area, I remember waiting in a room while she taught 2 ladies in a big, sorta uninteresting room, who were kinda fat and not strong but pretty. There were toys there. It was like before when she was the 1 taking the classes in Tai Chi, but the instructor stopped. I don't think my mom can speak, though, maybe why she isn't doing business, anymore. She only speaks Indonesian and can't speak with an American accent. 8I You found out she majored in ESL, which is a class foreign exchange students take in public high schools, English as a 2nd Language. 3) She was so proud of the THESIS. I don't remember what it was, but it was probably about exercise. She doesn't want me to talk about her, but I guess you are okay. I think she is a year and a few months younger. She said she is the movement person.. She was #1 in gymnastics and did ballet at church as a child. She didn't do well in high school because that was when she was able to quit and start gymnastics. So, I also took the lessons, and from doing ballet, as well, which you would be interested in, I was able to make it work and get the positions better than her. Being her daughter, like my ballet teacher's daughter, it was just over. I had a music teacher with a daughter who did choir since 2, but her dad was very different and I guess she was very different. Kinda like Céline Dion. I was the opposite of these comfortable people. My voice used to be very very detailed and you couldn't really tell what you were hearing. It was very soft and very beautiful and could last forever until you figure it out. It was very solid because when I talk it's not like raspy. My brother also did Tai Chi, but I don't think he ever got it, though he was into martial arts. Anyway, as for me, I used to experience at school going to all these clubs. I wanted to do Debate, Laureate, and Drama. I was the only 1 who knew about "My Fair Lady" in Quiz Bowl, my friend from San Fransisco got me in it the end of freshman year and she left Drama. I find that a lot of people say that they're white but that their moms don't give a * about them. All I can say is I think my mom cared about me when I was a toddler but that she isn't "bad." If you're also interested in the experiences I had to go through with my mom, I remember I think in both Orlando and the New Orleans area going into a big room with other people and doing slow exercise, just to travel. I remember it being a big deal at the end when we switch off the lights. }:] Accent seems to mean what accent in the U.S. I think I have an Orlando accent. I also have a New Orleans accent. Diction seems to be how to speak the accent. I guess with talking I'm like with how I think I just don't think about it anymore, really. I hope my post was informative on speaking. In the homework I stressed that I grew up interested in the muscles because it really is so hard to do that. Anyone ever been told to make your mouth into an o? I don't know why I can do it now, must be the food I eat. I also always was told that you learn to hold your breath professionally by pushing your stomach in gradually after like filling it somehow. It doesn't help me.

So, I hope my post was holistic and informative on interesting things and not too long and was relevant and professional. I'll see you tomorrow for acting and maybe voice.

hw

I just finished.  I just have to pack.  I guess I'm going in casual clothes?  But I end up rushing to change so you know maybe not.  I have to go in my contacts and bring extra..  I'm not having my female thing, but still.  Well, maybe, I can go and change and even change into contacts because it shouldn't take long.  I think I have an indefinite period of time, technically, though it was to be done like ASAP.  I just have to print my homework.  I'm not going until 9 A.M., will miss being there when it's dark in the morning.  I'm waitlisted for weight training, so we'll see.  I found it necessary to recite aloud to memorize but am maybe getting into memorizing more for fun.  I have to buy the full play of A Midsummer Night's Dream.  I also want to read about true ghost stories...

TV

I saw all the online clips of Ellen DeGeneres from this past week.  My parents were home.  I have to ask my dad to fix my TV when I go jogging.

What I've Been Doing

I did Jillian Michaels No More Trouble Zones shoulders & legs and core.

I loaded a video of me with the memorization: YouTube.

Problem

So, why are you on niggers?

Also, how did Ellen DeGeneres get on Twitter?  Is it just not working for me?  Um, what does that mean?  Does anyone know the cause?

Memorizing

I just memorized a maybe minute long passage of a fairy "Over hill, over dale..." from A Midsummer Night's Dream by Shakespeare in 20 minutes.  I did my homework over the past few days, since Saturday night maybe or something, dunno.  Seems like I had 1 more day.

nu video of me

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Problem

Someone just liked Ellen's Universe of Energy today.  WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON YOU NIGGERS I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THIS.  LOOK ANSWER YOU NIGGERS.  LISTEN.  I SAID YOU'RE NIGGERS.

Problem

Why isn't Twitter working?  ANSWER DUMMY.

Recurring Issue

Orlando is hyperallergic to being perfect.  I WILL NOT SIT HERE AND JUSTIFY MYSELF WITH YOUR BS CONSTANTLY AGAINST MYSELF FOR NOT HAVING A PERFECTLY SUCCESSFUL LIFESTYLE!!!  :0

How I Feel

I think the exercise and "aesthetic" food is making me a heavy lunk, need a salad.

Woke Up

I remember dreaming of a blanket between my legs and like Ellen DeGeneres made it rub and it was very stimulating in a fuzzy way, though I wasn't feeling so pristine.  I looked up and it stopped.  I tried to feel it again awhile.  Was where I was on my sofa.  It was hard to digest my food after starting school and exercising more but not being able to run as much with my almost broken ankle.  I had more dream but forget.  Ah yea, I guess I was going around.  I left a cat in a basket of books, and I had to take it out and take care of it, in public.  I went to a bathroom a ways away and my music seemed loud, like 5:00 A.M.  Before, I was trying to hide in rooms where no one would see in through a window, but someone who looked like the male in "Master of the House" unlocked this big, dark, seemingly carpeted bathroom.  I think I was dreaming about Ellen DeGeneres, saw her on TV or something.  She seems like a German foreign exchange student.

Also, warning, my dad is letting out like leaving signs over and influencing even the city to try to stimulate Ellen DeGeneres in a bad way, like it was before with the boy.  Ha, they want her to "listen."  Hm..  I'm not a spaz.  I couldn't even feel good in bed and got up to do something.  I'm not really sure what's wrong, technically.  My dad was being mean again, and he acted like I did something wrong and just wouldn't change.  He's irresponsible and not much of a parent.  I DO NOT AGREE WITH CONTENDING TO ME ABOUT THE N WORD THING.  Look now you think all this has been okay.  You think maybe it's okay that it was bad before..  WOW I HOPE THAT FLIPPED YOU OFF.  Watcha gonna do now?  If you hurt me, it may ricochet back.  No more lovely children..

Going to Bed Soon

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Blaming Dads

It's not fun when there's a toss-up.  Isn't it my dad's fault for being who he is?  Why is Tim Burton so pushy?  I heard he was Canadian, meaning he has Canadian parents or grandparents or greater grandparents.

Contrasting

Why would you want the big finish to make a big deal of something about me how I am with other people if like you're so mad about comparing me to others?

R E S P E C T

So, people won't respect me and look up to me, like Chloë Grace Moretz.

Stimulated

I feel good.  I ********ed myself and I just felt like strong and feeling something like radical and like European as in like feeling kinda proper and feeling strong and right with feeling.  It was something I thought of recently about being from Louisiana, the New Orleans area.

I thought of something else good and forgot.

Shower-Bath

Who Am I?

Why are people telling me I'm some way I don't have to be that benefited me before?  I did gymnastics and was not considered feminine both because I was Chinese and my dad has black or dark hair.

Connecting Territories

I really connect the New Orleans area to L.A., but they have to have a way of connecting to the Northeast.  I guess that California is different.  They seem to have disappeared into a puff in the sky.  I suspect or think my friend from San Fransisco does not have ancestry in California and think it has to be Canada or maybe somewhere like South Carolina.  I really don't know.  She went to Alaska, but she has dark skin and is part Native American.  Her parents are separated.  She doesn't like her dad.  Her mom looks Native American but does not connect to it like I have to.

Connecting to Successful People

With attractive people, it's easy to connect to them like you're from the same family, I found being from Florida with the basic Pennsylvania heritage.  I found it funny though all the people from Southern Pennsylvania.  I have cousins, too, and I mean the adults are serious.  The annoying thing is I really do not know if I'm Native American.  My mom isn't.  I didn't grow up as much with my dad other than intellectually and like the American culture.  My family claims a building was burned down with records as to if we were Native American indian.  I think my life depends on it.  If I know, then I'll know just what to do.  No one wants to waste their time on me, for some reason.  I know it's uncomfortable, too.  I mean, that might be part of the reason.

Caucasian Florida - Race Reasons

My dad wouldn't move to Florida if his sisters didn't.  They've lived in the South.  It might be because they're part Native American or maybe something else funny.  The thing about being Native American is not so much that it's wild.  It's more civilized down South.  They might be descended from some tribes in like Indochina or maybe South China or Mongolia.  The funny thing is even Eskimos have light skin, so I'd say it's tribal China, which is highly recognized.

People are very mad who are like maybe Eastern or Southern European because they seem to tend not to be Native American indian, are shy.  There is nothing wrong with being indian unless you came from a bad indian family.

Functions

So, people up north say that they're just going in 1 direction thinking about right and wrong because they just don't do anything else, but I heard when I was right that I couldn't say I was better than everyone else.  I was told I didn't deserve to be something and they compared me to ancient ancestors in their old age physically.  I don't want to just be a dependent, in ways...

So, the problem with going in 1 direction is that people don't want to know what they're doing.  They know their race is standard in the Northeast and maybe the Northwest or Midwest.  Race meaning like the other states aren't really like a solution.  Supposedly, moving is a solution, like moving from Pennsylvania to NYC or New England.  I have something like that.

I am finding that people are just being mean to me and am mad that other people care.  It's like some people who are interesting won't get along with anyone who knows my family or anyone who is like them.  See, they won't say why, but as far as I know before they would have said they would never do that but would do it anyway.  I know people can change my life, but they can't change the world.

Also dangerous is people who move to Florida from somewhere else, things like that, like Chloë Grace Moretz.  I don't know what it's like not to be from a modern area.  People can't say it's so!  I don't need to live as someone who can't be free physically.  I know what's right and wrong in virtues of being modern, very well, and you need to stop wasting your time testing me.  You know it's a mistake to care about things like the n word thing.  A Tim Burton thing.

All I can say is that people are uncomfortable around me because no one else is talking to me...

Virtues

I talked to my dad today about being nice and acting like you're punishing people, but of course he didn't really communicate anything to me.  :|

What are you looking for?

You think to be detailed you have to just get to a minute point that no one else nearby is at and then you just judge it off something else and say you figured out it was good but that it's not just impossible for someone to do it again though probably not very possible, especially with what's around, the people, what they think and how they affect your being able to have fun and think, like when you leave the house or hear anyone, like if you don't live alone and don't get food taken to you, I guess, though I assume that having food taken to you is imperfect bug could be a nice experience ... guess too to live we work together.

Twitter

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Edited text box to the ballet stuff.

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Getting Attention

3}  How much attention should a person get from 1 person?

Ways of Feeling Psychiatrically

If you notice someone has a way of pleasuring themselves in a tacky sort of way, what if you pressed a button to pleasure themselves in the opposing way?

Cute.. Guy.!

The 1st main guy in Les Misérables was so cute.  I noticed this time he looked like a wood carving from a book exactly, such thin lines protruding from his sunken in, dark, leathery, wet face.  Then, it poofed up, for some reason.  ,:|

Ate

Liverwurst
Old Chef Boyardee Canned Macaroni & Cheese
Chef Boyardee Can of Macaroni & Cheese
Sandwich of Family Bread, Honey Ham, Lettuce Head, American Cheese, and Herb & Lemon Sauce|Salad Dressing
Chocolate Oreos in Milk
Sliced Zucchini Cooked on Water, Covered 3I
Liverwurst

Florida + California

Why does Ginny Kopf thing she has a leg in Florida being from California, she can't want to do something no one else can.  She probably does.

Panera Bread

My mom got me small soup, ½ bread, ½ sandwich, YUM.  3}

People Mattering

Tim Burton thinks people don't matter.

Video of Me Singing

I changed the time on a video and added a star: YouTube.

Problem

I have the warning on IMDb, again, and I already put up the Les Misérables songs.  What happened, this time?  Someone is stalking me.  The warning just went away.  I don't have Pro, right now.  IT'S BECAUSE OF GINNY KOPF.  I guess someone in another state can do something about this.

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Cara Noëlle Tunstallposted toMargaret Campo

10 hours ago via mobile

Dr. Campo! We should have lunch sometime! I miss you! :(

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New Video of Me

Talking to the Non-Emergency "Complaint" Line about people thinking they can control me who I meet in public.

If you already happened to see it, I added a description.

YouTube

Problem

So, I also got mad outside my house.  I told my dad it was his fault I got stuck at Lakeside.  I don't think you're allowed to take your kids to jail if they're mad.

I stomped my foot, took out my earplugs, and went inside.

Problem

GINNY KOPF YOU MADE ME RELEASE MY ANGER ON MY DAD.  You talk to him.  I was mad.  Then, I got mad at you.

Going Along

I'm tired of my mom tagging along?  What if we knocked some sense into my dad?  He doesn't want to go up north.  3[

Being Mean to the Good People

Why would people be mean to such a nice person?  You would have to just be mean to all the nice people or say you're just doing shit, you don't know what you're doing.

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Dream

I remember at the end Ellen DeGeneres in a more old former self with shorter hair was carrying me, but it felt more like Ginny Kopf, but I think it was just because I was feeling sore from working out.  The only reason I ever took to my mom, asked her to carry me a lot, was because I was scared, etc.  So, I was just in a minor movie with Johnny Depp, and not many people knew.  I was trying to pick from flimsy folders for like what seemed like ½ hour.  The blue green 1s were turning orange.  I wanted a really lite, almost white 1.  I finally left, and I imagined being carried, felt kinda like being satisfied but not really.  I know I have to use the restroom but was tired.  So, I was being carried a long time, probably my height now if not a little smaller.  I eventually saw myself in the glass and saw I looked funny without my legs wrapped around the person and tried doing that and for some reason thought I should boost myself up, and the person was like that's okay.  Kinda wasting away being mellow.  It was funny, the person was gonna grab my crotch.  We were wondering if it would be heavy, so I was thinking hey you could lift someone with 2 hands.  So, it was nice, I felt so cared for.  It seemed so real.  The person didn't seem too real.  So, we were in Saint Augustine, and there were all these thin girls with fluffy smooth bangs, small, dresses maybe, in lines, playing basketball.  I walked in, and they noticed I looked better but not as thin and we were thinking about what I ate.  A male adult said don't think about lunch, sharply, but then was like okay when they did and was thinking of supper.  There was at least 1 fat girl and an Irish girl with slit eyes and white hair who was fatter, like a fat face and a plump body.  So, I left, and she picked me up again because I was an invalid.  Finally, we got to historic Saint Augustine, and I jumped|hopped down excitedly, sick, but wandered around, sick as in fat and tired and not feeling pristine.  So I was hobbling around excitedly from different points in my dream.  I guess it was how you imagined that city.  I didn't really expect it to be that way.  We were like at the end of Saint George Street, though, and at these pillars where I had my picture taken when we visited and I took the test.  Anyway, there were more shops, like it was a quaint walkway in a normal town, kinda like in Georgia.  So, we went in a shop, and I said if we buy chocolate we buy chocolate right away and eat it that's what it's for or something.  I was upset I was just in a movie and had no money, so she was gonna pay, I guess..  So, I saw little metal objects in glass and was like ooh... and I saw her get a big flat thing with sections of jelly and she was licking it, and I saw a man about her age probably definitely seemed like 2 years younger or something licking it, too, or maybe 3, another 1.  I guess that's when I woke up.  Oh, well most of it was about me being carried, and people were looking and I felt bad, which I haven't felt before.  Also, I ran into a big girl who I told I was in a minor movie with Johnny Depp.  There was another part where I was seeing my ballet teacher from my college in New Orleans, and she had on long sleeves but seemed to have big earrings and was talking to kinda naked, dark, sorta grotesque people.  There was a long part I think I was with my mom and these Asian people.  I got us to bargain off like a sum of separate $3,000, and I even got us paid back as 3rd class, probably like $4,500.  It was a long, miserable time.  We were atop a dark mountain with others, Asians, and they were getting strict and mad saying we had to pay or go to jail and we just paid.  So, it was mostly, after the confusion with the folders and money, about me being carried after being in the movie, being comforted physically but not feeling well.  I sorta had a feeling I was in Key West.  I felt kinda warm, normal, but embarrassed but not really because I was big.  I also woke up and realized my other ankle hurt.  I actually tripped on it, as well, when I messed up in something around a little kid at Mary Poppins.  Also, I've been jogging with weights and a backpack, I know last time went for about 15 minutes.

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Another ******.  So, anyone with that round, flaky, fat face look is trying to look CHI NESE.  80

cont.

I mean, like, why would they "have" to look like a way they shouldn't that their ancestors did?  Wouldn't it fall off like an umbilical chord?

A Race of People

Okay, this 1 gave me an ******.  Why would you want a race of people to not do what it wants?

Weights

I jogged with weights.  When I put it more at a 90°, I didn't jog as long.

I also got a sammich and raspberry and white shark gummies @ the 711.

Facebook Posts - Posted Twice :) in 1997

Christina Barrettposted toMargaret Campo

January 1, 1997

I see you have a new priest. I know you had the nice African-American gentleman, but I told you in a Private Message that I would have left. I've moved around a lot. I've only liked maybe something about a church or churches program in either Southeastern or Northeastern urban areas and the nation's oldest continuing parish, which is a very large, fancy Cathedral. It's very serious. I don't know if I still like it. I think all I really liked was going to children's choir with school and the night|evening mass.

I just also wanted to let you know if the parish takes who their priest is seriously but doesn't seen to publicize who their priest could possibly be ... I don't understand why they are so connected with priests who don't seem safe heritage-wise, who don't seem to try as hard as they can. The only other reason I decided it was important was because I'm sure it was sneaky, and people I meet seem to get mad at me for things like this I know about and it pretty much sets me off though I was able to gain some control over myself tonight.

There is no church music program in Orlando, but I am trying to be accepted at UCF, as well as the other 3 schools ... and got back in Music Education and will audition on voice and take organ lessons, unless I don't have time but plan to do it like in this summer, will make me happy, hopefully will teach me something cool. You know, the people in the Youth Choir were cool, too, but they didn't seem to know classical music. Even guitarists from the flower age know classical music. All the good church songs are folksy and from the flower age. — with Orla Fallon and Margaret Campo at The Cathedral Basilica of St.Augustine(Official).

The Cathedral Basilica of St.Augustine(Official)

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Something So Funny

The funniest thing happened.  I walked into Wal-Mart and looked at the tan lady at the carts like she was a nigger and swerved at the reddish blonde, pimpled German boy in returns who seemed to thank me for shrugging off the nigger.

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Edit

I added my tan type.

Echos

Why in music is the only thing that makes anything worth it echos?  In keyboard, I was always interested in that.

Ex er Cise

in out

WORK out

WORK NOW

EX ER CISE

I did some ex er cise!  (('3D))

Update

Waist: 32" - 31"

Eating

I had a big piece of liverwurst and finally am eating my parents's food, spaghetti and sausages with tomato sauce but not much meat this time.  :|

Waitlisted

I got my 1st waitlist, Weight Training I TR mornings, in case it opens up and I get in Voice for the Actor, though I don't know that I will because I don't know if my dad really wants me to just not take all the theater courses or thought I should be off to a slow start.  The thing is I will probably get financial aid, though.  So...  They've been paying a lot for 3 car accidents, though.  What's that supposed to mean?  They just did it as a trick because they're treating me like I don't matter and that my life is an experiment and that I owe them everything to any good experience I have like with other people!  ':0

Applied

I just e-mailed my mom for some stuff for UCF and the FAFSA, the big financial aid everyone here is requiring.  I'm in Seminole, just have to call and see why I can't sign up for classes.  I e-mailed about music at Valencia, the form online they only gave, and to Seminole about organ.  In the summer, I'm doing Ballet I MW mornings at Valencia.  The theater teacher I have is teaching Acting I in the short summer semester, like 6 something to 9 something, 2 sections at the same time.  I don't think I will take it.  There will be no "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I signed up for Music Education at UCF.  I was looking at Theater and thinking about Voice.  BTW, you have to take 8-10 semesters of a foreign language at UCF if you didn't in high school.  We didn't have to and didn't know we'd have to take more than 2 semesters.  I guess the Ballet I will be fun.  I can still post online and there will be summer flicks.  A summer job would be fun but maybe not.  I have to see what Ginny teachers at the other community college.  She might be doing Oral Communication II, which there is just I this semester.  I was thinking of taking a break this semester.  I did meet a girl who took her classes 3 semesters in a row, but she didn't seem very close.  I really liked her.  She's big.  She also teaches Dialects.  I could ask to take private coaching from her after this semester is through.  Too bad I didn't know about transportation before.  I could even use it to do other things.  I think I learned about this as a disabled student from going to the mental hospital, but I don't know if it's just for the "disabled."  I mean, the bus would take a long time, but I assume it would for most people.  I used to see a Valencia bus but not anymore and I'm there all day but not anymore.

Scoo

I'm applying fo UCF.  The date for the big private college has passed.  I think most of the other schools don't have many programs, and yes I've looked at them maybe like 4 times.  UCF's deadline is July 1.  So, the private college, which is #$1 in the South (not as a National University but the other big category of schools that offer the Masters level) has the deadline for the Spring.. Nov 1.

Problem

I don't care if you think something's not supposed to be cool because it is, and some things prove you're just a foo'.

Problem

I don't care what you know, like you think that makes you smarter or that you think it proves you act more European because I don't think it does anything.  You just gape at me with signs you give and complain that you don't have a blog.

Problem

There's no reason for my parents's family to think I'm a nigger.  To elaborate, they will say that I'm like perverted but just feel funny in how I've been treated growing up because my mom thinks I have to be an ugly Chinese.  Why did she even have me?  LOOK I'M NOT GONNA BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.

Problem

My dad keeps getting antsy thinking he's worth something trying to hurt me thinking it's a sacrifice that no one will hurt him, but he and in some ways his family.. don't participate in like idealizing or fantasizing or something that he's really tacky and disgusting etc. like that it must be passed on to me except it's not really there.  I don't believe in wasting time on that.

Oh, and I was cowering in my bad a bit after my mom left because my dad was gaping at me-but like that he "didn't really do it" :/- like playing with my eyes like I'm a cartoon nigger and making fun of "my mother" which I'm not good enough for...

Woke Up

Eating Cream Cheese & Chives crackers with spread.

I had dreams.  I remember 1 now we were in class and I remember sprawling out in a room.  1st I remember we were having turns going up to Ginny, and like we were each sitting on her lap, like Santa Claus.  So, I wanted to I think eventually like sidesaddle, but I just sat on a huge leg like a bike and she said like see I have big boobs, I guess like my therapist.  I think she was jiggling her leg up and down worried.  I had a dream I was sitting on Tim Burton's leg about a month ago.  So, it made me feel in my crotch, kinda like my bladder and stuff like I was trying to get something out but sitting there limp like a doll I guess but alive and just got up and left.  I remember feeling unhealthy in some contrapted room with public computer booths about signing up for ballet or about dance in general and getting instructions.

Also, my mom did the laundry and my right sac is feeling leathery and taking effort.

I'M NOT HERE FOR YOUR WORTHLESS SAKE FOR ALL YOU DO WRONG TO ME TO KEEP GETTING BACK TO ME GO TO **** NIGGERS

Many Talents

Something that doesn't work out with people is that if 1 person is good at something but you decide aren't popular (-how- -would- -you- -decide- -that-) that someone they are related to or know can be bestowed with the same gift and not someone else more talented.

Sick

I don't think I'll be getting a sore throat.  I haven't been taking my pills, should probably keep Vitamin C in my room or extract it.  I'm just getting a chilly, warm-wet nose and just sneezed!  Ah-choo!  Like Miss A in Letter People.

Going 2 Bed, Soon

Umph

Something interesting in class...  Ginny set up the blocks I didn't notice to make a booth.  When it was over, I didn't help because I wasn't the 1, but I realized my ankle almost broke just now.  Haha, it's so funny when adults show off their rm muscles.  She was like quickly putting blocks away.  The people I knew in music ... well, the singer ... didn't seem to have like as sure of strong arms.  She was very big, though, very tall.  My arms used to be big but not fat and not like bubbly.  My legs were pretty thin, but when I quit the workout activities I just bloated, even in a year.  I want to start jogging with weights and wish we had Body Pump.

My Morning So Far

I lay on my sofa.  I ate 2 hamburgers on thin rye with Heinz.  I had a whole zucchinni!  Cut up and cooked.  3I  Like always.  1st time I had a whole big 1.  I had a turkey panini at the mall with sourkraut.  Didn't like it.  It had "Thousand Island" dressing, which was good, but it was cold in the middle.  3I  Then, I walked to the 711 and got a sammich and ice cream candy bar.  3D

I was in the bathtub and thinking about touching my teacher for a long time.  =}  You know, getting close to her?  Physically.  I just didn't know why, except that I got mad.  I was in a group and I told her I didn't feel well and my partner wasn't telling me what to do, but I am pretty good at being backed off at my age, now.  =]  I used to ask my dad to carry me when I was a kid and my mom when I was a toddler, like 2, 3.  I didn't like it when she pushed me in her stroller.  She was very mad in a way but not barking that I hid behind her dress, like at work..  3|  Also, when we went to the beach, like Pompano Beach, which I liked a lot of course, it being directly above Fort Lauderdale, where I 1st existed.  I wasn't really frantic other than to keep my feet dry, but I regret that.  I really was scared at school without my mom after it was over.  My dad said the kids would go up to them and say I didn't talk and finally I did.  I remember not talking.  Then, I started to talk and it just wasn't a big deal.

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I put how long Chinese-Indonesian is.

Problem

I'm not gonna let you be mean to me.  What's your problem?  Why are all the people I like being mean to me?  I guess they had rushy parents.

Problem

YOU NIGGERS.  I was in the car, and my dad like wiped out the meat of my right eye.  That's the "literal" side of the body, and the left side is the creative side.

Problem

Something really bad happened.  I'm not daring in a vicious, niggery sorta way.  I was in the car.  My dad was like snapping around.  My nose felt soft in a bad way, whereas before it was hard and crusty.  This is not something I would do to a kid.  I mean, I can see other people making it happen and letting me know, but I don't agree with it.  I could be made to look like I do, but I didn't.  Wow, what niggers in Orlando.

Forgetful

I just thought of something but forgot.

So, why exactly is Florida and California plain?  It wasn't because of the beach.

Edit

I tagged my last post "Audrey."

These People, These Faces

So, I guess people are tired of playing around with like making up stuff about being nice to me.  I wonder why Tim Burton does that?  I guess a famous person from California or Florida would be ideal.  I guess Ginny Kopf is the best.  All I can say is if someone from California moved to a friendly place in Fort Lauderdale.  I mean, how would you be famous there?  Hm.  I mean, you could live there, but why?  I guess you have to cater where you're from.  For some reason, people want to know where my dad is from.  Well, he might be Native American indian.  So, I know I get intelligence from him as a person.  I don't know about people meeting their parents later on in life and no one really knowing their parents before well enough.  I did connect to the Cleveland area because my dad's dad's family lives there.  Also, I guess I have to say I'm Pennsylvanian because I get a lot of like hunk and milk from him, he drank and drinks so much milk, every meal.  His mom didn't work until his 2nd sister was born, but she worked to put milk on the table for him...  So, my mom is from out-of-the-U.S. and is pretty much European.  You are interested in the milk and intelligence, but it dies down, maybe because his parents weren't as well-fed.  My brother is not as strong.  He doesn't listen to me.  My parents think making him European would damage him maybe because he's a boy so maybe they are wanting him to like explore and don't know how.  I don't think he likes who he is.  My parents just sorta put me off and change their mind.  I haven't really designed much for him in my head.  Haha, a puff of a thought, like Ginny's last name, Kopf!  I just realized Pennsylvania is the 2nd smartest state.  So, what was I talking about?  Ah, yes.  So, I have that "white American" heritage.  *eye roll*  So, it won't affect me because I've never lived in Pennsylvania.  I was up there with my dad's youngest sister, who they play around with is really bad and then when I'm mad that she is skinnier they deny it.  I'm pretty feminine and solid like her, so we get along well.  We're both feminine and really into Audrey Hepburn.  Funny the other sister isn't.  She thinks it's not ***y.  My dad does, but he doesn't make fun of me but in a way seems to think I'm tacky.  My grandma is more supportive and aloof!  :o  So, I had a good time in Louisiana, maybe kinda tipped over, so-to-speak.  My friend from San Fransisco seemed coocoo.  I don't get it, but that's what they're supposed to do.  I don't have an accent like people from up north, but when I heard it I caught on and processed it.  =}

Ethnic Countries in Florida and California

A thought just occurred to me that I've never specifically thought of, HA!  Florida and California don't have a specific style, like the specific countries.  So, you have to go in and find their ethnicities.

I don't do anything like that---

Look, I don't do anything like that!  I want a direct answer.  I want a big nose when I grow up but a smart 1 but not like I don't believe in anything fun and going off track.  You know you'd say someone with a small nose is good like you, I thought.

Problem

What's wrong with my grandma and oldest aunt?  Why can't people just treat them the same?  My cousin doesn't seem to be doing well but is now being treated better.

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The Book

They took down the book of Florida Railroads in 1900.  I noticed a book on Altamonte Springs, lots of places in Florida, including the Everglades and 1 with men in Orlando ... there were intellectual puffy women in Altamonte Springs, the 2nd place I lived in Orlando.

My Outing

A dark food janitor seemed to make my dad feel goofy, so I stomped by him and made noises at the table, got up and left and searched for a police but couldn't find 1.

I got another gray cat shit.. found nice black pants the right length but none that fit, everyone in Orlando is my size.

Barnes & Noble wasn't cooking at 8:30 P.M., so the black lady was rude and I stomped off, so-to-speak.  Everyone noticed and people became concerned and forgot that I wasn't worse than them, in the end.

Also, the shirt I got has a tight belt.  It's squeezing my *** tubes.

Set Up

Why is my life set up top be bad? I'm not like everyone else.

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Unfair

Why would you advertise your class and then change your mind? Why are you treating me like I don't think right? Why do you think just I have to want to work to be like my parents, in a bad way? Also, what is your problem with thinking you were told to say a curse word?..

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I'm loading 2 videos of me singing nice classical songs by Henry Pucell.  They'll be done in maybe ½ hour.

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It's not.

I was thinking of these 2 friends I have with older moms and older parents thinking that logic "it's not."

Ate

Earlier, I had 2 greasy, overcooked French bread pizzas.  I had lots of asparagus's.

The Irish

I suspect that they are mixed with black and know that they are and that there are black Irish and that it might not mean black hair and that it could mean Hispanic.  Órla Fallon's real last name is Karron, and it's real French from Normandy.  I really believe that because of her last name she is French.  I believe she is sexy because she is Irish.  I'm sure there are a lot of Hispanics who have lived in Ireland a long time, and I know it is probably the oldest country in the world but you know maybe not but probably seems older than Turkey.

My Race

I wish I had more certainty of what it was, you know proof, not just sure suppositions that alter through the years in various ways.

Something Funny

I got Cowboys & Aliens as a present because we watched it in theaters, the cheap 1 other than the 1st time, I think 3 or 4 times.  I like when the oldest guy says, "We can't just keep throwing sticks? at it, we've got to go in and surroouund them."

My Health

I had my female thing for 28 days or 1 month.  It was heavier than recently, just pretty much every ¾ hour like a somewhat elongated pool.

Discrimination

Not do be discriminatory, but why are minor Asian and island and black countries undesirable but not minor Middle Eastern countries, because they're all minor islands without any volcanos, mountains, desserts, rainforests?  Florida is not an island.  I grew up highly sensible to that.

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