Problem

My dad keeps getting antsy thinking he's worth something trying to hurt me thinking it's a sacrifice that no one will hurt him, but he and in some ways his family.. don't participate in like idealizing or fantasizing or something that he's really tacky and disgusting etc. like that it must be passed on to me except it's not really there.  I don't believe in wasting time on that.

Oh, and I was cowering in my bad a bit after my mom left because my dad was gaping at me-but like that he "didn't really do it" :/- like playing with my eyes like I'm a cartoon nigger and making fun of "my mother" which I'm not good enough for...